Abused

Posted on January 1, 2013 by admin

Occasionally a lingering thought comes up in my head if I am going to be an abusive relationship again, whenever something sparks that memory.

No I am not one of those man-hating feminist, in fact I still have many male friends that I sometimes share an intimate moment or too. Many of them try their best to treat me with respect and with tender loving care. I probably love men more today, than I have in my younger years of high school and college. Well getting back to my story as to why I occasionally have some fears and anxiety is due to some abusive relationships with men that seem to take joy in being sadistic. I too enjoy a little pain every now and than, if you know what I mean but not to the extent of where I am being held against my will.

It all started one faithful afternoon, when me and my husband were outside. Well I suppose, I should start with what happened earlier that Friday we were out shopping at Tiffany’s and I was picking out some new jewelry. Continue reading →

Gang Life

Posted on November 22, 2012 by admin

One day I was with my boys, my gang, when that punk came up to us to make the deal. His name was Jerome he was 22 and I wish I never had met the kid.

He was a thug as was I when the deal went bad. My partner in the gang ended up shooting and killing the kid. It was not as if that was unusual but, this time I was asked to get rid of the body. I was the one left with blood on my hands. I have a feeling the gang was ready to get rid of me too.

That is when I changed my identity and I became Jerome Martin. Sitting there dead, he looked somewhat lonely as if he were alone in life. I disposed of his body and kept his wallet. Continue reading →

After 2 Black Eyes, I Woke Up and Smelt the Coffee

Posted on November 5, 2012 by admin

Somewhere underneath the rage and hate, Steve must be a good man. At least I would like to think so. I find it so hard to think that a man could transform to something so hideous.

I still remember when we first met in the Mexican restaurant down town. This was after a blind date 3 months back. Steve struck me as someone with wit and a terrific sense of humor. And those traits do it for me more than physical features. I have never been a sucker for muscles or abs resembling sculpted stone. I have always been drawn to the human mind, like a moth to a flame and funny people. I believed that was where I would find my happiness. That was my own version of love. Continue reading →

Interview with a drug seller

Posted on November 1, 2012 by admin

We had to change the name of this guy, as revealing his identity on this blog could get him into serious trouble.

We met Timothy L. Lacey, 25 years old, born and raced in Detroit at local Starbucks.

CI:
Hi Timothy great to see you. How are you doing?

Timothy:
I am ok.

CI:
What happened that made you decide to sell drugs?

Timothy:
Like most guys in my neighborhood I just could not afford to go to university and working for $7 an hour is just not my thing. I joined the gang life when I was 15. I started selling drugs with 16. I am pretty good now. I know how to avoid cops and make sure I not get arrested.
(Smiling) Some pretty cute girls just cannot afford to buy meth and s**t like that so they pay me with sexual favors. I am loving it.

CI:
Do you take drugs by yourself?

Timothy:
Normally I don’t. Drugs just f**k up your brain.

CI:
Do enjoy being part of a gang?

Timothy:
Well it’s good and bad. Somehow I like it, at the same time I just want to escape. As long as you play by the rules you will be save from your own gang. The only things really making my life danger are rival gangs. People are killed all the time. Joining a gang is easy, escaping a gang and starting over is virtually impossible.

CI:
What would happen if would leave your gang life behind you?

Timothy:
They would hunt me down and kill me. I just know too much. It’s pretty fu**ed up. The only way how I could escape is changing my identity and starting over somewhere far away in some exotic country. Like Brazil or Thailand.

CI:
So you want to start over?

Timothy:
Yes I want to get a new identity and start over. I am just so sick of seeing young people die every day.

CI:
How much money you make selling drugs?

Timothy:
Normally I make around $20 to 30K a month. I try to save some money, but it’s not easy.

CI:
Did you ever kill somebody?

Timothy:
Almost, I shot at a guy into his left foot. He tried to sell drugs in my neighborhood. Such a stupid mother**** .

CI:
Are you scared of prison?

Timothy:
Yes I am. Prison sucks. I have been incarcerated before. It’s a nightmare. I could never go back there. That’s why I want to stop what I am doing. I too scared to lose my freedom. I know if they arrest me, I would go behind bars for at least 20 years. It would destroy my life. I really need to get a new identity and start over. I have the feeling time is running out. Sometime I have nightmares where I dream of being arrested. I see my last chance in changing my identity and moving to a place far away.

CI:
Thank you for your interview.

6 months after this interview took place we received a post card (yes they still exist) from Cambodia. Let’s hope he will not start selling drugs in Cambodia as well. There he could face the death penalty. However, he seems to do well with his new identity in that foreign exotic land.

How To Surf Anonymously

Posted on March 22, 2012 by admin

If you ever thought that the internet is a place where you can exchange information anonymously, think again.

Everything you do is recorded by government agencies as well private companies. If for some reason they want to track you down, they can.

In the past people liked to use proxy servers, however, they are not 100% safe as it is possible to see through a proxy connection. The only safe way to access the internet is through VPN (virtual private network) connections.

A VPN network is used by small and larger organizations to encrypt their communication and data. I use an encrypted internet connection every time I access the internet. I believe that we all have the right to some kind of privacy, without big brother watching us.

I have tried different VPN providers; however, you have to be careful. Some claim to provide you with an anonymous encrypted internet connection. However, in reality they store your data and allow access to third parties e.g. government agencies or private companies.

DooVPN.com does not save the websites you access or the data that you send and receive. Even if somebody should contact DooVPN to get more details on a customer, there would be no data available that they could pass on.

How To Vanish?

Posted on March 1, 2012 by admin

You might have heard about people before who vanished – maybe you’ve seen a news report about a woman who had her identity stolen, or watched a TV special about someone who faked a death or even their entire identity in order to escape debts, their past, or a troubled relationship.

Each year, a countless number of people attempt to alter their identity… legally or illegally. Not surprisingly, the history of altering one’s id can be traced back hundreds of years. To “disappear” was especially common before the digital age, when it was harder to trace people across state lines or country lines. It was not unheard of for someone to simply leave their “old” life and begin a new one across the country, never to be heard from again.

Today, id change is increasingly linked to our frequent use of digital technology. It’s become much harder for people to get their new identity the illegal way—simply put, this means without going through the legal government process required to really change your own identity. There are an almost endless number of records related to someone’s identity in today’s modern world. Addresses, social security numbers, bank accounts, and even things like emails can be easily traced to someone’s identity.